The Mad Scratchings Of An Electronic Pen

Today I put the photoshoping skills that I have picked up over my time doing fandom stuff to use for Real Life business stuff and made a cover photo for my FB midwifery page.

I have no problem fund raising for other people. Give me someone trying to raise money for a trip, or medical bills, or whatever, and I have no problem going up to anyone and talking them into donating something.

But turn the tables and asking for myself? I become petrified. Why would anyone want to give me money.

So here I am, screwing up my courage and putting myself out there...

I need $2,000 to attend the Midwifery Today conference. This will cover the conference fee, a hotel room, travel costs, and food. If you want to help out, stop by my Go Fund Me page or feel free to signal boost.

SO I guess I'm updating once a month now?

The apprenticeship continues to go well; I've been moving through the skill testing portion and am taking on more responsibility - I even helped with a catch (it was hour 26 and we didn't think mom was ready to push so I was left alone, then I started to see the head and was stuck in a spot where I couldn't move)!



One of the reasons I haven't been spend much time on LJ is because this program has a tuition, which I've been trading for yard work. It works out to 13 hours a week that I have to fit in around prenatals and births, so my free time has gone down to almost zero.

However... you could help me get back some of that free time! I've posted a crowd-funding campaign to help raise the cost of one year of apprenticeship.



I'm also trying to keep up with a video blog about my time in Utah.

Hey there LJ, I'm still alive!

There's not much to report, school and birth center and housework and more school and a few births and more school.

I've got a blog strictly for posting about apprenticeship/midwifery/birth type things at: http://yankeemidwife.wordpress.com and I've done two posts in the last weeks.

The learning curve of the new apprenticeship/birth center/family/town has left me almost zero time for anything else. I haven't even thought about watching TV in over a week - although I have kept up on The LBD and I have thoughts on the vilification of Caroline (not a new thing in JA adaptions/fanfic) and the tap dance the writers are doing trying to tie everything up, but I have no time to lay these thoughts out in a coherent manner.

So that's my new life - very monotone, very focused, very lonely.

'Shire Thing #8 - While there are trees EVERYWHERE in New Hampshire, they are all new growth. I knew that it was timber from the colonies that built the amazing navy that made Great Britain a superpower, but I didn't realize that almost all of New England had been clear cut to do so.

On The Writing Front - "Cylon of the Opera" (and I really need a new title for it) will be probably end up being a three part epic. Today I wrote a scene which tied my two chunks together, meaning I have 2/3 of the first part written.

And now I'm starting to doubt the whole thing.

I have really messed with Kara's back story and am changing how she copes with things, playing up the religious side (which I am making up or pulling from the Battlestar Wiki because I've never seen "Caprica").

But what if I've changed her too much?

Starbuck is a kick-ass, take-no-shit, kind of woman, Christine Daae was an immature girl who always had a strong male presence in her life to rely on. Forget apples and oranges, these two are apples and staircase carpet.

On The Baby Front - We've had 3 of the 6 babies so far, with two babies due anytime (our biggest fear is that they'll go at the same time).

My next exam is March 15, but the 14th will be a travel day, so I have 25 days left.

I still have to do:
3 3-6 page info booklets to write and format
1 rough draft of the Complications project
197 Questions spread over 8 worksheets (which works out to 8 questions a day)

I can do this.



I can do this.



I boy, I really need to do this.

Okay, I am now starting to really freak out about the upcoming exam. I still have two and a half lessons to finish (by Friday) and stupid me - I looked at the review lesson.

I don't have to do it, but if I do I'll get 5 points towards the exam - which I might need. Right now my biggest freak out is the fact that spell has always been my weak point and what if I can't spell the words I need for the test?


Day 01 - What is your current favorite ship?
Day 02 - What was your very first ship?
Day 03 - A pairing that needs to happen now?
Day 04 - The pairing with the most chemistry?
Day 05 - The pairing with the least chemistry?
Day 06 - Best kiss?
Day 07 - The most heartbreaking scene?

Day 08 - The pairing with the most baggage?
Robin/Barney “How I Met Your Mother”

Where to start? They both have massive daddy issues. Robin's spring from not living up to her father's (impossible) standards, while Barney is dealing with not having that presence at all.

Robin struggles with her self-image – she feels guilty that she has no interest in a babies or a husband or whatever else she's told herself is what a woman should want.

Barney has a massive fear of abandonment – his father left him when he was small, then the girl he was in love with stomped on his poor, hippy, heart (Think about it, if Shannon hadn't been a bitch then Barney = Marshall. Mind blown, right?)

I think the reason that Barney/Robin failed as a couple the first time around was that they were trying to fit themselves into the mold of what they thought a “real, normal” couple should be (I love Lily, but the whole “you have to define the relationship” thing was the beginning of the end, IMHO ). I really think that they will end up together, but no matter how much they grow it won't be in a traditional way.

I've got a new post up at Yankee Midwife talking about two new births I'm going to attend. Check it out!